Well babies...it's been exactly 34 days since I found out there were 2 of you "in there." I won't ever tell you what my first reaction was except picture a lot of tears, feeling frantic, and saving up every penny I found. But now? I've gotten used to the idea and I'm EXCITED for you to get here!
See, I've always loved you both. That was never an issue. I just wasn't prepared to have both of you come into the world minutes apart from one another. Your dad was amazing when he found out about the two of you and told me over and over that we only need to love you and everything else would fall into place. And he was right.
When your big brother, Liam, found out about you two he immediately started planning all the stuff he was going to do with you. I remember him saying: "Momma. They don't need cribs. They can sleep with me and I'll hold them and protect them all night." I asked what he'll do when you guys leak through your diapers and he assured me he would "blame it on Rosie" the cat. I laughed so hard and I think it's then that I gave up on worrying about saving tons of money so you all could go through college and not take out student loans, worrying about how we were going to pay $400/wk in daycare, worrying about the extra diapers, formula and everything else. You two are the greatest gift God could have ever given your dad, Liam and I.
See...I'm preparing to meet you in a mere matter of weeks. I'm almost 26 weeks now and I'm thinking I might be able to hold each of you in about 9 weeks. It seems so crazy to think you'll be here sooner than later. So forgive me for all of my future mistakes. Someone is going to be sitting in a dirty diaper longer than I want them to. Someone is going to be hungry while I feed the other. Someone is going to take the brunt of my crying. But I do love you both. I wouldn't change the way anything has happened EVER! Remember I'm a little crazy. I'm a little dramatic. But I'll always be there for you. And I'll love you like crazy...
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